Here’s my number, call me, maybe

Have you ever giving up your number to a stranger? I did! Undoubtedly I gave it because of me being plain innocence who didn't know how to smile back and just walk away. Back then during university period, there was a guy, a tutor from neighbour faculty, gave me his name card and asked for my number in return. He begun projected himself as an ambitious lecturer and researcher whom his research paper or invention (I couldn't remember now) presented in Geneva conference. And I just went like ‘oh, really? Wow, Great!’. Worst, he had his phone in his hand and dialled the digit in front of me just to confirm that it's real and that his number was registered in my phone. Luckily my friend called for me shortly after I passed out my number. So, not so lucky I supposed. She should call me pretty much earlier. Sigh.

Another incident was when I bought soy-bean drink at my never-spoken-to-schoolmate’s stall. He asked for my number. Huh? I never spoke to you, man. Yes indeed. I knew your parents, I knew where you live, and we went to the same school and grown-up at the same place. But, we never be friend with. Again, I just gave up my number. What the heck was I doing? Knowing that I won’t pick-up the call and texting him in return, then I should not give it at the first place. I just created an awkward situation whenever I go to his stall in future. Good dear, you were so thoughtful. Well done!

Another unusual incident happened while my friend and I bought our lunch at university cafeteria. There was a guy asking me of something. Blur and maybe having hearing problem, I looked at him with weird look and said, ‘are you talking to me?’. After he introducing himself and informing us that we were stayed at the same block and guess what, he asking for my email address. Then again, without thinking, I gave up mine. (No harm what giving our email address to random people, just email right?).

By giving out your number, you are actually creating a false hope for the receiver. So darling, how to avoid the above incident happened again and again? 

1)     Stick to your friend circle. The hunter man won’t dare to approach you with your friends (especially girlfriends) linger around you. Never let loose them. NEVER. Glue yourself to your best friends. FRIENDS. I meant numbers of them. 

  

2)    Maintain the cold shoulder. Don’t show any interest. (If you really not interested at all). Don’t ask any question, avoid eye-contact, and give blank and plain face. (What such a cold-hearted person). Don’t even try to be polite.

3)  Just say NO. Most tricky one. I never good at saying no. Require hell a lot of practice dear.

4)     Telling them you have a boyfriend, even you don’t have one. ;p

It may sound irritating to share this kind of stories, but hey. This is really happening in our daily life. But, above only meant for those you disinterested in. So ladies, Good luck. 

Should Rob and Kristen reconcile?

I remembered instantly fallen in love with Cedric Diggory of Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. Mrs. Rowling had portrayed the character as remarkably gorgeous, tall (of cause), devoted prefect of Hogwart and a champion in the Tiriwizard Tournament. And the movie released, my heart grow fonder over him even more. Undeniably because of dangerously handsome young Robert Pattinson (Rob) played Cedric. Yippee!!!

Hmm, no wonder he managed to secure a role in Twilight. Look at him above, pale skin and motionless. Mirroring Mr. Cullen closely. 

When the heartthrob Rob played mysterious vampire, Edward Cullen in Twilight series, again I was insanely in love with him. Yet, when I have to learn that he dated (or still dates) his co-cast Kristen Stewart (Kristen), my heart crashed into pieces. (T_T). Worst, he was so madly in love with her. All his eyes were tailing her trail. His eyes shone with smile whenever she’s around. I dimly remembered the reason of stop watching the series. The last I managed to watch was the Twilight Saga: Eclipse.

Beautiful motorbike

“I have footage of their first meeting at my dining-room table,” Hardwicke says. “Kristen was like, ‘It’s got to be Rob!’ She felt connected to him from the first moment. That electricity, or love at first sight, or whatever it is.” Hardwicke gave him the part, but he had to make a promise. –Popsugar. By the way, Catherine Hardwicke directed all the Twilight Saga series.

Everyone just went obsessive over this power Hollywood couple. How they both instantly connected to one another from the very first moment their eyes met. They had so much in common, from their passion of their work, their love of reading, sharing the same value of life and to almost everything. Out of sudden, like Tsunami slammed the Hollywood, Kristen was captured cuddling tenderly with director, Rupert Sanders. (What!! Married man might appear nerve-wracking for super young and confused lady like her. But, hey!! You have the highest-paid Hollywood actor along your side, and he is wholeheartedly in love with you. What are you thinking, Kristen?) Although both of them (Kristen and Rupert) publicly apologized over the what-they called stupid mistake, both of their partners tore apart.

However, I’m secretly praying for their reconciliation. Knowing that the reconciliation requires tremendous hard works and sacrifices from both, many find the exit as the quick solution. The most crucial part is they must believe that the flame is enough to put in the work of patching the cracked relationship. It would be long and arduous proses. Having a patience and perseverance are the seed to succeed in this second go. Regaining the broken trust shall be a continual battle. Insecurity shall always haunt along the path. The forgiver couldn’t sleep soundly with ‘will she cheat on my back again?’ buzzing all the time. They wouldn’t resist the temptation of having own affair to even the fault. While the so-called-betrayer shall consistently trying to prove they've changed and being transparent enough about what they have been up to and where to. Heart-to-heart conversation is essential to make it happens. Both parties are responsible for the deal-breaking. Tiny issues may frequently negligence, but in the long runs become parasites that threaten the relationship.

To end, if we believe that the chosen path is right, but raining and storm seem won’t stop, never turn back, and just keep on moving. 

Making a huge decision

I was always excited to acknowledge about my transfer to second project, Manjung 4. There was something within me which I couldn't explain through words that drove me to Manjung. My former boss always hesitated about this. Perhaps his biggest concern was whether I could endure the rugged, the hot weather and the reality of construction work. But I insisted. I've made up my stand. I've tried to reason him by simply saying about gaining my independent as my world always revolved my beloved parents. 

Then my fairy tale had begun. I hardly be friend with my new colleagues. I barely found the chemistry between them. From the topic of conversation to almost everything weren't match. I regarded myself as quite friendly person although I'm not that bubbly, but still I managed to stick a conversation with almost anyone. Or perhaps I was being too arrogant. Hmm, just forget it. 

When it came to work, again I found it too complicated to adapt with new task. The non-technical sounded task given seem didn't able to satisfy my huge appetite to become a technical person. As day passed by, permitting the negative thought and broken emotion surrounded my daily life; I wrecked all the magnificent dream of rebranding myself as Miss Independent. Crying at the workplace became a norm to me. Arguing with my superiors turned to be a new habit I couldn’t resist.

Suddenly the rainbow emerged after the long rains in my heart. A closest friend from previous project had been transferred to Manjung too. Yippee!! Since her arrival, after work outing became often which for the last 3 months, isolating myself from others and caving inside my room were so compelling to me. Smile and laugh always accompanied me since then.

But still there was no good news for my work. Remain positive was a massive battle ever. Evil thought still lingered on my head, buzzing me until the night falls. I began to develop unconscious depression which resulting in increase high blood pressure. (What? 150/110? So unreal!) Then, of cause my over-conscious mum, constantly reminded me of looking for a new job which never pop on my sensible mind.

Wow, I have written a lot. And I seem won’t stopped just yet. Huhu.

So now, here came the crucial part of my life. We used to hear ‘when we gain something, at the same time, we will lose something. Therefore, ensure that what we gained is more precious than what we’ve lost.’ Finally, I have to make my own call. To withstand the dreadful and discontented current working life for another a year or to switch job and start all brand new day under the new company and new working environment. I’m never good at making choices. Unless I was asked to pick between a pinkish flowing gowns with vintage touched and all black Morticia of The Addam Family gown looked alike. Then, too obvious I’ll pick the pink one. ;P

I was always having this unexplainable sentimental connection with my previous company. And I will always have it within me. I’ve met a lot of wonderful people, making friend with them, sharing laughs, tears and thoughts, those sour and bitter memoirs will never be forgotten, but those sweet and amusing memoirs will be remembered the most.

The main point is simply doing the thing that you have to do. Yes, I’ve lost a lot as consequences of my leaving. I’ve lost experience to work and to complete the 5b worth project (such a wow factor to boost up your future career), I may no longer meet those great people I’ve once be friend with, I may miss the sweet and sour of real site life which may lead me to be a tougher and stronger person ever. However, I’ve made my stand. I might not know that I’ve chose the right path or not. I’m going to make it happens. Make it work, work! I’ve once ruined my own decision (transfer to Manjung), but I did believe I’ve fought the best that I could. Have faith in Allah. The rainbow will follow whenever you go, as long as you think and wish it would. Amin.